Monday, July 18, 2016

Monday Musings

Another week has come and gone and I am once again thinking about a few things. Today's entry will be less introspective than last week's. Sometimes you just need to get out of your head. So here we go with the happenings this week.

1) I want to thank Adrienne for her encouragement after my last post. She is on her own journey and I encourage you to check out her blog.

2) I went to the doctor last week and when my blood work came back my iron was extremely low. I am always anemic but I am usually borderline so I have not had to take iron. Now I know why I have been feeling so crappy and exhausted the last few weeks. Hopefully once my levels are back to normal I will feel better.

3) We went to a wedding on Saturday and my son was quite the dancing fool. I learned that my clubbing days are long gone. Thankfully a couple of my cousins helped us by taking turns dancing with him as well. We have another wedding at the end of August so I need to work on getting a bit more in shape.

Here are some pictures from the week.

Little man and his creation at Lego Time at the library

I have started another market bag in Detroit Tiger orange for the InAsKnit Batter Up KAL

Another square for DH's Doctor Who blanket

Wedding selfie

Me and my guys all dressed up

My dad's (2nd from the left) first selfie

Oh I could get used to this

Monday, July 11, 2016

Monday Musings

I have been thinking a lot lately about the state of my life. Turning 40 has certainly done a number on me.

Overall I am pretty happy. I have a great husband and a terrific son and that part of my life is awesome. I am more concerned with my personal mental and physical health.

I am slowly but surely running out of energy. It takes more and more for me to get up and moving. I know this is because of the excessive weight I am carrying. I dread Clark wanting to go for a walk or play a game outside. I do not practice his soccer with him because I know after about 2 minutes I will need a break and he does not understand why. I need to work on my exercising and eating. I want to have more energy and feel better. I want to be able to play with my son and not dread it.

I am also thinking about what I want to do with the rest of my life. Working on a help desk is not what I want to do for the next 25 years of my life. Right now I am not ready to make any changes because this job has a lot of flexibility which I need with little man right now. But that does not mean that there is nothing I can do to make things a bit better. I need to work harder on getting my store set up and running.

Basically I need to work a bit harder on myself. I need to remember that I am worth it.

Here are some pictures for you.

Preemie hat #12

Yellow market bag

Another Christmas ornament

My little guy is home from his weekend adventures

Aren't we all?

Playing goal

Cuddle time

Having breakfast with mommy and daddy

Looking good after a hair cut

Preemie hat #13

Tuesday, July 05, 2016

Ten on Tuesday: The Weekend Edition

The topic for this week is 10 Things You Did This Weekend. I had the entire 3 days to myself since the guys were out of town but I still feel like I did not get enough finished.

1) Knit
2) Read
3) Watched a lot of TV shows from the DVR (it was almost full)
4) Cleaned
5) Napped
6) Ate really badly
7) Worked out both Saturday and Sunday
8) Did a lot of laundry
9) Recorded a new podcast episode
10) Missed the fellas

Friday, July 01, 2016

Books Read: June 2016

June was another decent reading month for me. I completed three books but two of them were very short. In the past month I finished:

1) Sous Chef: 24 Hours on the Line by Michael Gibney - an interesting look inside the kitchen of an upscale New York City restaurant. I really enjoy watching cooking shows but they are a stylized version of a kitchen. This book shows the ugliness of what happens behind the scenes but also the closeness the cooks and staff end up developing.

2) My Wish List by Gregoire Delacourt

Monday, June 27, 2016

Monday Musings on Turning 40

Yesterday was my 40th birthday. Yes I am now a 40-something Crazy Knitting Fool (note to self – you need to update the banners on most of your social media to reflect your new decade). Most of the month of June I have been in a mood. My anxiety and depression have been out of control. I felt so overwhelmed and had so many things to do and no idea where to start. Saturday, the day before my birthday, was the worst. I could feel my nerves fraying and was close to tears almost all day. I had to take a break from little man and go upstairs and take a nap. 

Then a funny thing happened. When I woke up yesterday morning I felt like a huge weight was lifted from my shoulders. When Clark came in to the room to wake me up by wishing me a happy birthday I felt love and not annoyance. It seems that anticipating my birthday for the entire month was worse than the actual birthday itself. I actually had a good day and it was so nice to feel so much better after a month of feeling like a horrible person, wife and mother because I felt like total crap. It is so hard to see the forest for the trees sometimes.

Depression is a lying jerk. He will tell you that you are useless, that you will never do anything worthwhile in your life, that your friends and family do not really care about you. I hope the next time one of these episodes comes on I can remember that and remember that there is an end to the feelings eventually.

Tuesday, June 14, 2016

Ten on Tuesday: The Summer Bucket List Edition

The topic for this week is 10 Things On This Summer's Bucket List. I make one of these every year and very rarely complete anything on it. We will see if this year is better.

1) Take Clark to see Finding Dory
2) Go to Movies in the Moonlight
3) Go to Frankenmuth for chicken dinner
4) Have a picnic in the park
5) Take Clark to a hotel for a few days after his camp ends so he can swim
6) Make strawberry shortcake
7) Have an ice cream for dinner night
8) Have a water balloon fight
9) Participate in summer reading through the library for both Clark and I
10) Enjoy my guys and have fun

Monday, June 13, 2016

Monday Musings

So I have noticed that I have not entered one of these posts since May 16th. I will not be recapping the past month but here are some things I have been thinking about and dealing with.

1) The weird pinky pain I talked about last time has gone away. I was dealing with a weird pain in the back of my head for a few weeks but that has also thankfully gone away.

2) The last day of school is Friday and I am not sure who is more excited - Clark or me.

3) My DH has started a new job and we are all trying to adjust. His hours have changed so he leaves earlier and gets home later than before.

4) Clark starts soccer on Wednesday and I am nervous. It is not really a team just 6 weeks of "soccer academy" where they learn the rules. I hope he does well.

5) I have been very crabby and irritable lately. I am even getting on my own nerves.

Here are a few pictures for you.

I am enjoying the snuggles while I can

A hamper is way more fun than expensive toys

A red bird of happiness